Do you guys ever have existential crises? I have them sometimes late at night or times when it feels late. I start to wonder why I am doing anything I am and to what purpose I do any of it. I start to think that nothing I do has any meaning or that I will never do any thing of importance. I am simply terrified that I will never have a meaningful love/sex relationship with another person. I have wonderful friendships and family relationships but I want a Relationship. Capital R. And sometimes it feels like that will never happen for me. So many of the people I talk to either have a significant other or have no problem finding someone to provide some sort of physical comfort. I am 20 years old and I have kissed someone once. And it freaked me the $#@% out. I don't do physical things because I have issues with it but lord I'd like to.
So basically all I wanted to say was I was having a bit of an existential crisis earlier or maybe just a pity-party. Which I think is ok sometimes. It's good to figure out why you do the things you do.
